Stagnant Waters

"Anyone who believes in me may come and drink! For the Scriptures declare, ‘Rivers of living water will flow from his heart.’” John 7:38

Come Holy Spirit and dwell in me! I thirst for your living waters! When Im not in the word or ignoring the small still voice that is constantly driving me towards Himself, it feels as though my water turns stagnant. One definition of stagnant from American Heritage dictionary is: Showing little or no sign of activity or advancement; not developing or progressing; inactive. Sometimes I feel like am not making any progress and taking steps backwards rather than forward. We are clean and sanctified by the washing of the water of the word. I have already been washed clean and I have already drank of the water my Father gave to me, so therefore Im clean.
As I look back at my walk I notice that I am more often in the valley rather than the mountain top. Amazingly my husband put it in perspective for me. If, in our weakness His strength is perfected, why not call it blessed? Can I get an ouch! I really do not like the valley, Its so hard to connect with my Father and I feel motionless. But indeed it is a true test of faith. Will I continue to serve Him as if I were on the mountain top? The valley is where your true faith is revealed, so I cannot let my water turn stagnant. I thank the Lord that He is patient with me through all my human emotions and misunderstandings of what His truth really means. The Lord gave me a powerful word the other morning saying, "The ground you walk on is Holy, because it is I who determines your steps" Father I pray I walk worthily and holy in the path you have laid down for me! I know that I have a long walk ahead of me and I pray that the outpouring of the Holy Spirit in my life will truly run like rivers of living water and not run dry!