How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 1 John 3:1
I couldn’t wait to write this down today! God has given me a revelation so strong, so important, so needed right now in my life I am rejoicing! (In my personal relationship with God, He teaches me in a unique way through my dreams and He also gives me understanding. So, a revelation to me through dream is not uncommon.)
Last night I dreamt that I was at the house I grew up in. I was sitting on the couch watching this little girl running around and playing. She was so adorable, but as I watched her I thought to myself, “what a brat!” She ran from one end of the room to the other, all I wanted to do is give her a hug, but I felt her feelings too and she didn’t like being hugged. So I watched her thinking, “what a stubborn brat! But goodness I love her so much!” I longed to hold her and love her, but I didn’t mind just watching her and loving her from afar. The little girl was me! I knew I was watching myself and I saw myself in a way I never had before... a loveable child, who despite being stubborn, is worthy of love… and the love was authentic!
I have struggled my whole life accepting and allowing myself love, even the love of God. I have always been told and even believed that God loves me, but it lacked a genuine understanding because I never loved myself. Just like the little girl I refused the affection, a stubborn act on my part, because I didn’t ever feel ‘worthy’. I sometimes recite the mantras, Jesus loves me, I am loved by God and so on, and even though I believe them, the love never penetrated my heart. This dream allowed me to really see myself how God see’s me and love myself the way he loves me… unconditionally! The feeling was so real and true and I feel it’s a big step towards the relationship God is calling me to have with Him and myself. Today I see myself in a new way! For the first time I can say from my heart, “I LOVE MYSELF!”
I pray I do not forget the love God has lavished on me and allow the world, which does not know Him, to cloud the image I truly am … A beloved child of God!
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Posted by MikeyAnn at 4/15/2010